25 November 2006

Where am I: USA - Gulf of Mexico (offshore). Sunny, 25C

I didn't get pissed off with someone for a while now (couple of weeks at least). Usually it doesn't take much or that person gets slammed with lots of my verbal aggression, in which i am very good by the way. I got many people scared and walking away but not daring to ask their questions any more.

But the last few weeks i have been kind, friendly, helpful to all people, answering the phone with a smile and replying emails kindly and patiently even if I find the question stupid (which doesn't necessarily mean it is a stupid question). At the daily vessel meetings i laugh if someone makes a joke and i even share one of mine, and everybody else laughs. If that is because the joke is good, or out of surprise to hear me tell a joke, i couldn't care less.

With all this i am ruining my long build-up repuation, of being a bad tempered (especially in the morning) unapproachable unsocial guy.

Now i can smile without people thinking "what's wrong with Robert, he smiles!"

I am feeling good, I had some good talks with people up the hierarchy, taking their advise after they did really listen to me. Another part, the last two weeks were high profile weeks, especially logistically, and when it gets crazy then i get the best out my self. I just felt so confident, and now that it's over and seeing that everything went perfect, Well it just makes me happy. The people that work for me are happy too, cuz they know how i can be at previous occasions.

Well it's hard to explain, but i'm feeling happy. Good in my skin. Hope this will last for a long time
For the good of myself!